Mental Notes

Dear Daughter.I am so happy that you had a lovely restful night’s sleep and woke up in a great mood. You know… when Mummy’s eyes are closed and the room is dark like that… well that’s called sleepy time. When we sleep. And no, Mummy would not like to sample that little red toy you’ve been chewing on. But thanks! You’re such a generous child. And you know, when I put my...

Scattered

Yesterday was not my best day. The full enormity of this situation hit me and it felt like I was carrying the whole house on my back. I wanted to curl up in a corner and cry. And eventually I did. Which upset me even more, because I know I’m just feeling sorry for myself. Uggh. So I picked myself up, and I got myself busy doing lots and lots of nothing. Because I couldn’t concentrate on getting...

A Mother’s Gift

Last week I spent my birthday busy preparing for my baby’s first birthday. That, and helping my husband with his catering. It was a really busy day, made even more so because the boys’ school was closed so all three kids were home with us. It was the BEST day. My friends thought I was crazy. It’s funny – a year ago this is exactly what I didn’t want. My delivery date was in October,...

Small victory

A year ago I was stuck in a job I used to love, battling the prejudices career women face when they decide to have a family. I worked hard to get where I was – Senior Management at a well-connected Financial Services company. I developed a reputation for expecting excellence – from my team, from my vendors, but most of all from myself. I took broken messes and turned them into well oiled machines. I was good at...

Monday’s Muse – Reflections

With your sister’s first birthday just 2 weeks away, you’d probably expect this to be about her. But this is about you, my oldest child. And me, struggling to be the best mother to you that I can. You amaze me. You are so generous with your kindness and your smile lights up a room. Your are the happiest child I know. But your big heart is fragile. We had a rough day yesterday kid. We had some laughs, but...

Carefree Abandon

20-08-2009 Today I was reminded of what childhood carefree abandon felt like. As I watched my boys frolic in the water in the hot hot sun with their friends I was transported back to my childhood. It didn’t start out that way. With Aunty Stacy at the top of the water slides, I positioned myself at the splash pool at the foot of the slides. On the lookout for anything or anyone that could cause any harm to come...